demonleee

Mama is having her puppies, in a few hours they will be here. yeah finally i can't wait. this is awesome. i will put picks up when she is done having them. you know whats wierd though, she wont let me leave her sight. if i do she starts wining and barking till i get back. my dog loves me lol.talk to you guys later, i will give  ya a up date.

Why does it matter, why should anything still be. why does he always feel empty, unwanted and alone, why cant he have his self back? why does it seem so much easyer to leave and never turn back? why is life a cold place? why does love have to kill you, why does anything matter?    it seems leavin, and not turning back, is easyer then going on like having nothing to say. knowing one thing and saying another, and wanting to say somehting but just keeping it balled up inside. leaving, sounds right, the pain, and hurt from things that can't be undone, wont change. and knowing your self. this life is nothing but a shity cold hell, won't ever cha

sorry, now i see, now i know, now in pain, now this feeling won't go. i try to shake it off, to go on with out the pain, to try to forget, to never think of how i feel. but i can't. its getting harder and harder each day as it go's by. i thought this was the best, i thought alot of things, i wrote a lot and i even fell harder then i exspected i would've. i can't explain this feeling that flows though this body, its emotion, hurt, and more all mixed in one. i really thought you were the one, the gurl of my dreams, the love of my life. i once said i would never date, or anything. i knew then i wouldnt, but i went on a limb and tryed it anyway.